An act of Procrastination

I was completely bored and fed up with my tutorial question, and so i found something else to do...
what i can say? 50 random questions, and i answer 'em.. here we go...

Zero - Who was your last text from?

LIME (the phone company)

One - Where was your default pic taken?

Dunno

Two - Have you ever lost a close friend?

Somewhat... ppl grow apart, ppl change.. life happens.

Three - What is your current mood?

TIRED/ at peace

Four - What’s your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
No blood siblings, but many friends tht fit the part :)

Five - Where do you wish you were right now?

Canada or anywhere else but here

Six - Have a crazy side?

lolll..i think everyone does

Seven - Ever had a near death experience?

Yes.. ugh.

Eight- Something you do a lot?

daydream, read, listen to music, think

Nine - Angry at anyone?

nope

Ten - What’s stopping you from going for the person you like?

nothing

Eleven - When was the last time you cried?

last week

Twelve - What do you think about when you are falling asleep?

lots!

Thirteen- What were you doing yesterday at 10:00 a.m.?

ATTEMPTING a tutorial question (still hvent finished) *sigh*

Fourteen - Do you prefer light or dark hair on the oposite sex?

dark hair.

Fifteen - Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

one of my cousins

Sixteen - What is/are your favorite song(s)?

too many to list

Seventeen - What are you doing right now?

chatting, doing this

Eighteen - Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?

Forever 21

Nineteen - Heavy metal music?

not rly

Twenty - Are you currently missing someone in particular?

yes.

Twenty one - What you should be doing right now?

the tutorial question tht i hve to present *sigh*

Twenty two - What are you listening to?

Window Seat-Erykah Badu

Twenty three - You need new jeans. quick where do you go?

To Sheraton (the mall)

Twenty four - Who was the last person who yelled at you?

can't remember

Twenty five - Do you act differently around the person you like?

definitely not lol

Twenty six - What is your eye color?

brown

Twenty seven - Who was the last person to make you laugh?

Michelle

Twenty eight - Who was the last person to make you angry?

a girl at college

Twenty nine - Hello Kitty?

sure

Thirty - Is your hair naturally curly or straight?

curly

Thirty one - Hug anyone of opposite sex in past 24 hours?

yuppp :)

Thirty-two - One thing you want right now?

cookies n cream icecream

Thirty three - What does the 5th text in your inbox say? from who?

leandre.. anyone free at 2?

Thirty four - Are you happy with life right now?

yup

Thirty five - Are you currently jealous?

no

Thirty six - Are you fallling for anyone?

lol :)

Thirty seven -Do you forgive or forget?

mostly both... i dont like carrying around bad experiences with me

Thirty eight - What do you miss the most about elementary school?

glitter gel pens, days off from school when it rained heavily, games (red rover, marco polo etc)

Thirty nine - Favorite Disney Channel show?

kim possible

Forty - Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in right now?

yes

Forty one - What are you looking forward to?

4 o'clock tuesday, and sleep

Forty two - Does anyone like you right now?

so i've been told

Forty three- Have you made any new friends recently?

yupp

Forty Four- do you think you can be friends with an ex?

it depends

Forty Five- what book have you read this year that touched you?

Ugly - Constance Briscoe

Forty Six - One thing you're looking forward to doing?

Travel

Forty Seven - would you consider yourself religious or spiritual?

spiritual

Forty Eight - are you into sports?

yup

Forty nine- one thing that u value about yourself?

self respect

Fifty- Lyrics to the song you’re listening to?

"Window Seat"

So, presently
I'm standing here right now
You're so demanding
Tell me what you want from me

Concluding, concentrating
On my music, lover and my babies
Makes me wanna ask the lady
For a ticket outta town

So can I get a window seat?
Don't want nobody next to me
I just want a ticket outta town
A look around and a safe touch down

Window seat
Don't want nobody next to me
I just want a chance to fly
A chance to cry and a long bye-bye

But I need you to want me
Need you to miss me
I need your attention
I need you next me

I need someone to clap for me
I need your direction
Somebody say, come back
Come back, baby, come back
I want you to need me

Come back, come back, baby, come back
Come back, come back, baby, come back
Come back, come back, baby, come back

So, in my mind I'm tusslin'
Back and forth 'tween here and hustlin'
I don't wanna time travel no more
I wanna be here, I'm thinking

On this porch I'm rockin'
Back and forth like Lightning Hopkins
If anybody speak to Scotty
Tell him, beam me up

So can I get a window seat?
Don't want nobody next to me
I just want a ticket outta town
A look around and a safe touch down

Window seat
Don't want nobody next to me
I just want a chance to fly
A chance to cry and a long bye-bye

But I need you to miss me
Need somebody come get me
I need your direction
Need your energy, yes, I do

I need someone to clap for me
Need your affection
Somebody say, come back
Come back, baby, come back
I want you to need me

Come back, come back, baby, come back
Come back, come back, baby, come back
Come back, come back, baby, come back

But can I get a window seat?
Don't want nobody next to me
I just want a ticket outta town
A look around and a safe touch down

I just need a chance to fly
A chance to cry and a long bye-bye

Wow, so it's been quite a while since I wrote my last blog entry!
While listening my ipod the other day, I came across one particular song that I thought was extremely profound. That song being Hallelujah by Leonard Cohen.
The lyrics struck a cord with me, particularly, ".....And even though it all went wrong, I'll stand before the lord of song, With nothing on my tongue but hallelujah......"
I think those are words to live by. As humans we go through alot, making it through another day can be the most exhausting thing ever. We make friends, we lose friends, we try and sometimes don't succeed, we love only to sometimes end up broken hearted, we put trust in people to sometimes end up disappointed and we learn, sometimes realizing we learnt nothing at all.
Sometimes we face disappointment after disappointment, but the important thing is that we get back up everytime we fall.

Life is so fleeting - what's the use of going through life being timid and consuming yourself with worry all the time?
I guess the bottom line is ....LIVE!!...love living!!
Despite all the negatives that may come your way, there are many positives although they may not be as obvious. We are lucky... we are living and breathing, getting to experience this journey we call life.
Surround yourself with persons who have a positive effect on your life - those who love you and would be there for you, no questions asked. But more importantly, embrace who you are as a person. Love yourself. Celebrate your existence. And while you're at it, have fun! =]

I finally saw Eclipse and I loved it! So far it is the best movie of the series; David Slade did a great job. I'm officially Team Jacob, despite how he has changed throughout the books to be sometimes a downright jerk, he's still lovable. Another reason I loved it so much, was because it came the closest to the actual book. Everything pretty much looked like how I imagined it. I also liked how they expanded on the character Riley, who Xavier Samuel played really well. It was also nice to see Jasper get more screen time and hear his Southern accent really come out.

I cannot wait to see Breaking Dawn! I just cannot fathom how they'll bring Renesme to life.

Also, Eclipse is "Rated R" here in Barbados. So ridiculous! After watching the movie I really cannot understand why. The vampires being killed didn't even bleed so its not as though there was too much 'blood and guts'. Oh well, I'm 20 so it didn't affect me,but i feel for the poor teens who can't see it.

The B.E.T Awards 2010

Last night the B.E.T Awards aired, and as usual, the show only had a few moments of glory. I did not see the whole show, but rather only the performances. So here is my take on them:

Drake & Young Jeezy- I like Drake. His songs are catchy and he usually comes off very passionate about what he raps and sings. His performance was simple; no hype men and no over-the-top pyrotechnics. It was just him, his band, and the visuals on the screens behind him. I can say I liked his performance. This was mostly because you could feel how much he was enjoying the moment. I am no fan of Young Jeezy so I may be biased, however I really do think he added nothing to the performance and his presence was pointless.

Alicia Keys- Yes Alicia Keys is a wonderful singer, but I have never been a fan of her performances. I have watched every B.E.T Award show and I am never impressed with her . For a person who sings ballads, I know not to expect much, however, her performances fall flat and at last night's show it was no different. I also did not see the point in her performing a medley of her past hits. she has a new album out, why take us back? In the process of taking us through her hits, she also reminded us through a video montage, of which of them reached number one on the billboard charts. Something I also thought was unnecessary and a waste of camera time.

Eminem, B.O.B. & Keyshia Cole- These three performed B.O.B's song 'Airplanes', which has become a favorite of mine. However, Keyshia Cole sang what was originally Haley Williams' (Lead singer of Paramore) part, because I assume she couldn't be there herself. As strong a voice as Keyshia has, I often think she lacks vocal control. She always crosses that line between strong and powerful, and yelling and clumsy. If Haley couldn't be there in person, they should have just played her vocals in the background. I honestly think she was the low point of the performance. B.O.B however brought the passion you hear on the song, to the stage, which was great. Another high part of the performance was Eminem's appearance, one in which you could hear the audience was glad for. Not only did he sing his verse to the song 'Airplanes' but then sang his own song, 'Not Afraid'. As with B.O.B, he brought his passion, which was enough to have the audience singing along and bobbing their heads.

Dirty Money- This group comprises simply of Diddy and who I consider to be his back up singers. I believe this is just another another money making endeavor and he could care less about the talent of those two young ladies. I know pyrotechnics can make a performance more exciting, but his performance had too much and the dancers and his 'backup singers' got lost in it. Also, when I saw the amount of fireworks I thought of the 4th of July. I do not like the song and for a song which in itself is weak, the performance was too over the top.


Ludacris, “All I Do Is Win Remix”- I liked the beginning of his performance with the women and the violins, after that it became like any other hip hop performance. Busta Rhymes,DJ Khaled, Diddy and others came out to perform 'All I do is Win'. Nothing much to say about it other than it really had an impact on the crowd, but none on me. One part of the performance that had me truly baffled was Busta Rhymes' verse. For most of it he sounded like a rambling fool, where nothing could be understood.


Nicky Minaj- She appeared three times during the show, each time wearing a different outfit and wig. I really do not get what her appeal is. Her over the top antics can be considered entertaining to some, but what i could not understand was why she was lip syncing. She is a rapper and it was not as if she were dancing and doing anything strenuous that could have warranted lip syncing. Overall I believe, that for a person who so many people were looking forward to seeing, she gave an half assed performance.

Lastly....

Chris Brown- Chris Brown made his return to the stage to pay tribute to Michael Jackson. The first part of the tribute was purely dancing. While his skills are impressive, I really did not see why twitter was a-buzz about how "spectacular" his performance was. The performance was good yes, but we all knew that he could dance and he's been copying Michael Jackson since he came out, so I do not see the need for all of this chatter. Chris got his chance to show off his limited but usually satisfactory vocals to sing 'Man in the mirror', but broke down crying. People think its because of how much he respected MJ and probably how honored he was to have been asked to do it. However, I think its because he probably felt like he was vindicated and that due to the response from the crowd, he had been forgiven for what took place last year. Regardless of the reason, I felt he had another moment to shine and he let it slip away. But from what I can see from people's reactions, he's probably headed in the right direction to having a buzz worthy career again. For me however, it will take more than dancing and waterworks to care about his music again.

Life...

There are always things people want but cannot have, things people have but do not appreciate; the latter of which irritates me the most. Over the past few days things have happened that remind me of how much I can dislike my life. Generally my life is not bad, but it is extremely heart breaking to work so hard to have certain things and then due to ' life' and everything that comes with it, have them taken away. Yes a person must sacrifice at times for the things they want, but when you are already between a rock and a hard place, what else is there to give? There are days when things seem like they are getting better, but then 'life' reminds you that few things are really in your control and that hard work and perseverance can mean little to nothing.

When the lottery comes on I always say "a man who spends his day at a rum shop drinking will win, but a person who is truly struggling to raise their family and to pay bills will not ever win". Is this reality fair? No it isn't! People always say that a person should dream big, have goals and work hard to achieve them, but wanting something or needing something does not mean you will ever have them. I'm starting to feel like what i want most right now isn't going to happen and it hurts.

I turned 20 on May 8th. Nothing major to report since most of my friends have not been fortunate enough to have finished exams. I did however get to watch Iron Man 2, which was pretty good. Robert Downey Jr never disappoints. He's always a tad bit schizophrenic in his roles which makes for good entertainment.

The real celebration for my birthday, will be the 14th, when all of my friends will be free to lounge around and enjoy summer. I'm really looking forward to it since usually i never get to do anything to celebrate my birthday. This year i really wanted to, not only because its my 20th, or because for once my exams finished early, but because i may not be here in Barbados for my 21st, and wouldn't have my friends to celebrate with.

Overall, I'm just happy to have lived another year =]

Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don't mind,it doesn't matter. -Mark Twain

Summer is here!

At 6pm on May 6th, summer officially began. I had my last exam, which went great, and proved to be a nice way to end off exams, and begin summer. After months of hard work i was looking forward to being able to do nothing. Not only did it mark the end of the semester for me, but also my life as an Undergraduate student. According to my father, i am "officially unemployed and unproductive"; which suits me just fine. I am too caught up right now on the fact that its summer, to truly feel like i have 'graduated', but as the months go on, especially when its time for my friends to go back to school, it will hit me.

However, while i have finished that part of my educational life, i'm planning to have another phase begin. I have plans to go to England and study for my Masters Degree, and once things go as planned, that is where i will be, come September. While i may have to wait a while to see if my hard work this past semester has paid off, i am comforted by the fact that i know that i put my best foot forward and was a dedicated and hardworking student.

Now the only thing on my mind, is what to do next and how not to be bored :)